Within You

I find it a very troublesome situation that looking back a couple of short months ago I was writing and writing, no problems. I was writing enough to have a good size set list, to have too many songs to choose which ones to put on an EP. Looking back I try to see what part of me has changed, grow, or disappeared and left me in this position. I for the first time feel completely un-creative. I have ideas, but they are never what I really want to create, never what I agree with whole heartedly. "So create what you want already, and stop complaining!", you say. Well, I've been trying, and anything that comes out, in whichever media is the choice of the moment, is garbage. I feel as if I don't fully feel enough, what it is that I'm living, loving, and believing, to accurately portray it through the means that make me satisfied. So how do I fix it? How do I start feeling "this" -whatever "it" is I should be feeling at the moment- in such a way to end this drought of creation?

Even writing this annoys me. I feel no real sense of creative-expression, even though I know no other way to be expressing my thoughts. Plain and simply I lay out my thoughts, but it seems so dissatisfying. This case of writers block is crossing the bridge from frustrating, to stifling. I need some kind of change for the better.