The Beast Knows She'll Get What She Wants In Good Time

Today was a bad day. And in a couple of ways, not just one. Bad in the sense that most people would think: I had a lot of things on my plate, many things upset my delicate demeanor, many things frustrated me. But the bad for me, was that I did not live out of love, my heart and soul are filled with hate, and anger, and mostly with myself. Which is a big no no in my book. My mind is scattered, and I have lost much balance. I need time to re-center, and do not have that time to spare. And my soul feels unsettled. I am so hungry for things other than what I should be focusing on. Creativity is plaguing me. I just want to be able to sit down, and paint, write lyrics, write on the guitar, the piano, write up my theories on life, religion, The Creator, and yet I am stifled by papers... Although the papers should interest me, and usually would, today they are enemies, and will stay that way until they are rid of me. I know that the quicker I do it, like a band aid, it will all be over, and I can relax, but I'm so ADD still, that it is hard to sit here for long amounts of time, and just hack through. 

Tomorrow will be a trial. I have had days like tomorrow, and I know how hard they can be, but I need to remember AAP, remember the underlying principles. Most of all remember that there is a choice to be angry, or to be proud of the things that are beautiful and pure. Wish me luck!