Medication

I know one of my previous posts was about just this, but weeks have past, and I've had a full circle revelation. I need to start BEING again. I need to be thinking about the now. I am such a goal/plan oriented person, which I've never seen as a problem, but that lifestyle leads to so much disappointment. You just set yourself up time after time to fail, because I set my goals so high, or plan so extravagantly, and as a Virgo I don't do well when my plans don't fall into place. So without letting go of making plans, and setting goals, because I do truly believe in balance above most things, and think you need a bit of both, I will start the art of letting go, and just being. So hard for me to do, but after a very good conversation with one of my favorite conversationalists, I remembered my own words, thoughts, and values: Decisions.

Decision is one of the many gifts we humans under appreciate. How many other living things can go through the process of deciding, between right and wrong, what is best for them, what color they favor? We as humans can decide for OURSELVES things that not every other living creature can. It is what gives us free will. A gift, again, under appreciated.

But in the past few months I have been under appreciating these gifts. I have been wallowing in stress, greed, and judgement. When really I have the choice to stay in the state of anger, or do something for myself to change my attitude. I can make excuses to delay my decision making, but why? Why do humans prefer to let there unhappiness enfold them rather than make the effort, decide to be happy. Is it really that hard? Is it a thing of pride? Or are we such a lazy breed that we'd rather wallow that shine? As for me, I will try to avoid my human nature, and make the conscience decision to be happy.